curiosity

Dec. 30th, 2025 04:06 pm
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do wonder about commonality of phantom organ sensations in particular . never really feel organs in same way as external bodily parts , but still subconsciously know sensations of weight and position , where even little differences can be internally detectable and lead to weird cascade of effects . 

do sometimes get pain at actual incision sites , but never entirely sure if scar tissue , phantom pain , or mix of both . but swear also sometimes feel like actual phantom part is still there , even though was never consciously aware of how presence feel . shit is weird , that is for sure . 
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An anonymous reader sent us this cool thing:

I found a historic Brazilian example of plurality and wanted to share it with you. In the nonfiction book "Samba" by Alma Guillermoprieto, she describes Seu Malandrino, a dead man who sometimes possessed a favela-dwelling woman. Here's an excerpt from pp. 110 — 111:

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On Mondays, Celina’s body was often on loan to a scoundrel by the name of Seu Malandrino, who wore her chunky, comfortable flesh with a menacing swagger, spit obscene words out of the corner of his mouth, straddled her only chair horseback-style, and kept his face wreathed in a halo of cigarette smoke.

The first time I saw him, while poking my head in Celina’s door and running directly into the stare from his dirty yellow eyes, I found him very frightening indeed. It took a couple of seconds before I recognized a face under the white boater hat with red trim and babbled an apology for the intrusion. “I’m sorry, Celina,” I began, and was cut short. “Celina isn’t here. My name is Seu Malandrino.” The voice was gravelly and sinuous… “Let the gringa come in!” he said to a frightened young couple sitting on the sofa, and to me, “Sit in that corner and shut up!”

ponder ...

Dec. 30th, 2025 01:33 am
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like to keep files pretty well organise . there is one area that consistently struggle in , however : spirituality , magic , and religion .

for some reason , just can not keep any one solution in place for very long before another one sprout up ... and then another ... and another . by this point , definitely have 3 to 5 slightly different permutations of some things . on one hand , that is really neat way to see how thoughts change over time . on other hand , this is pretty useless to look through without some specific organisation scheme .

to get any use out of these random assemblies , kossai have to ... guess what ? make another organisation scheme . and that too will fall out of use , and therefore become part of cycle ... bah !!! 

Multi Bechdel

Dec. 29th, 2025 02:06 pm
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Rogan: After making my silly Bechdel in Bookshelf post, I found myself thinking about other variations. I also found myself thinking about how community is shown in fiction.

 

Loonybrain email down

Dec. 29th, 2025 07:26 am
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Due to switching webhosts for healthymultiplicity.com, our email is down and probably has been since Christmas. We are working on getting it up and going again.

Until then, if you have our phone number or the old email for the Greenough Hall MSTers Club, you can contact us through those. Sorry for the inconvenience; among its many failings, the old webhost has given me no sign of whether the emails I sent in the past week went out or not; on my end, it’s been acting buggily normal, and I’m having to guess it no longer works purely because nothing has come in for so long.
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vague tumblr thing more than anything .

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crosspost from tumblr .

recently mention that still implement some kinds of age restrictions for younglings here , but think good to talk about why exactly , and how kossai handle . 

in any plural collective , children can have much more life experience than age would imply , and no longer exist within child body . most major age restrictions fall into one of these categories : 

  • things that children can not safely accomplish with motor skills at this age - hence why children may get safety knives and plastic sewing needles , in effort to protect from injury 
  • subject matters that children lack emotional or social maturity to handle responsibly alone - ideally , need adult guidance to talk through at appropriate level
  • things that would negatively influence development of brain and body , potentially hurt in ways that adults would not be - hence strict alcohol and drug laws

within plural collectives , though ? none of this is necessarily true . some will find that children can easily handle knives and drive cars , but need adult company to watch anything more complex than sesame street . sometimes , will be able to handle horror movies and raunchy scenes , but can not get dressed alone . sometimes might be fine to get high and chill out , and sometimes might negatively impact in way adults would not feel , even though not literally impact development . 

age restriction is very personal as such - not only personal to collective , but to each individual child within collective . one of truly universal rules which have here is not to use public social media , or to talk with people who do not yet have discussion on how to handle young fronters . this is not because all younglings simply can not handle and be responsible , though this is true of some individuals , but because other people by and large do not know or care about proper respect .

often , other people get this idea that must baby-talk and become parental figure or such , to treat as burden rather than person - and honestly find fellow plurals to be worse about this than singlets sometimes . this is major frustration to everyone , so choose to cut off at source , as much as that also can frustrate . no real win , frustration either way . 

other than that , though ? younglings do not necessarily have worse motor skills than adults , so what would be unsafe within milestone groups might not be unsafe personally . and to be clear , this can be very true of singlet children as well , as some families work hard to help with development as early as possible ! that in mind , both in home world and when front , even youngest here may be able to function with motor skills on par with adults . when certain tasks might be unsafe to accomplish , this is for same reasons as adults , not unique to younglings . 

what is more impactful to kossai is emotional and social maturity . while younglings here still have many years more life experience than same-age singlets , and thus not exactly on par , this tend to be where young nature shine . as such , kossai do put restrictions on some media , as well as certain home world gatherings and events . 

different age restrictions apply case by case to different media , events , and individuals - some flexible , and some not . some prohibit entirely to non-adults . some ask that adult be present for guidance , to be able to help and comfort . others allow solo engagement , but only if meet certain requirements personally . 

( as mention last time , but feel might as well say again : kossai do lack memory barriers , and so knowledge about characters from any media is still accessible to all fronters . personal ruling is that younglings can play with any characters regardless of source media , but still must follow restriction for direct media or fandom engagement . there is simply no good way , or good reason , to try and enforce rules on private imagination and creativity . )

in any case , kossai do find that age in number is not always helpful - again , because of longer life experience , might compare to array of different milestone groups , not just one . these milestone groups also do not account for more personal quirks and needs - what might be OK to engage solo for one will need adult company for another , or prohibit entirely .

will also say that younglings here recognise and embrace differences from adults . to remain young here is , in at least some part , active choice - and just like some things belong only to adults , some also belong only to younglings . separations and limitations do not come from place of hate or over-protection , but to respect those differences and allow everyone happiness . 

of course , this is how kossai do things . some of these things will almost definitely not apply to other collectives , but would encourage to think more about some of these points , and whether restrictions actually comfortable or ... well , too restrictive .

dedication !

Dec. 26th, 2025 04:20 pm
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some really fun updates to shezow shrine . still not done with all of page content - shehicle is especially bare - but check out ! really want to talk about spoilers , and want to see if people can figure out first . 

spoiler 1 - codename blue )

spoiler 2 - codename green )

(no subject)

Dec. 25th, 2025 10:33 pm
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hard to say that enjoy hoarders TV episodes , but there is something that draw back in . would say there is something of satisfaction with episodes that go well , and personally find importance in ability to see consequences and solutions . but unfortunately even good ones most often inter-cut with cruelty towards hoarders , between family members , and so on . subjects of show very clearly do not get near as much time or respect as deserve , and conditions built for TV , not for actual help .

so ... really happy to actually find cleanwithbea , who deep clean homes in horrendous conditions all for free , while protect client privacy and speak with genuine respect and care . there is also none of TV drama where subject only reluctantly agree , and then panic because completely upend house - bea specifically select for clients who self-apply , ready for whatever must be done no matter how extreme . breath of fresh air .

( wow , is this first time anyone on dreamwidth actually use recumbent mood ? :P )

DROWN ME IN LADY BOOKS, pt. 1

Dec. 24th, 2025 08:18 am
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Mori: I done got my periodic need for books about queer ladies, so I have been wallowing in lady books. Here’s what I read!

queers and ladies from 1980s-1990s )

And now I feel a craving to make a lady zine. I BELIEVE IN ME!

this library is tease

Dec. 23rd, 2025 02:47 pm
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1 of 2 books just arrive ! 

... unfortunately , book which arrive is 3rd book of trilogy - 2nd is still yet to be seen ...

roll around and sigh ...

Dec. 22nd, 2025 10:59 am
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wait on 2 library books since 5th of this month . still nothing . only potential hope is that most recent delivery boxes behind counter still not quite empty , as peek yesterday during second poke-and-bother session , so could uncover today . really hope so - will go in today anyway for event , so that would be convenient . 

The Multi History Box!

Dec. 21st, 2025 10:58 pm
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Sneak: I have discovered ultimate power!

Now that I have FoxitReader working on the new computer, I have regained the ability to print insta-zines out of any fancy academic articles I want! (Just as long as they're ~52 pages or less.) We have been sorting the periodicals at the sci-fi library, and we decided to snag an empty box because it was the perfect size for our bookshelf, and also many of those boxes are empty, dusty, sad, and unloved.

And then I had a great idea. @_@ What if it became our multi library box?

A bunch of the very old multi articles we have (and some of the new ones) are from magazines or 600+ page tomes with names like Transactions of the Royal Edinburgh Society, which include a gazillion articles by a gazillion people on all sorts of topics. (The Royal Edinburgh Society one not only has an early 1823 "dual personality" case, but articles on a plant fossil found in a quarry, milk of magnesia, and math.) Obviously, we aren't interested in, like, 580+ of those pages. But thanks to my trusty printer and FoxitReader, I can print out just the articles that matter to us, date them, annotate them, and put them in the periodicals box in chronological order for easy reference!

I now have seven historical articles printed:
  • Papierfliegerfalter's translation of a 1791 German medical multi case: Gmelin, E. (1791). Materialen fur die anthropologie (pp. 3-89). Tubingen, Germany: Cotta. (The original German case is already online and screenreadable at GoogleBooks.)
    • Maybe now that we have it on paper, we will FINALLY read this!
  • Plumer, W. (1859). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double ConsciousnessHarper Magazine No. CXX, Vol. XX (May 1860).
    • A case about the lady often credited as "the first multiple," even though there's no such thing. She switched between two folks for years, and settled into one permanently after a while.
  • Dewar, H. (1822). Report on a Communication from Dr [sic] Dyce of Aberdeen, to the Royal Society of Edinburgh, "Oh Uterine Irritation, and its Effects on the Female Constitution." Transactions of the Royal Society of Edinburgh, vol. XI. Edinburgh: William & Charles Tait.
    • Early "double personality" case involving a teenage girl who'd sleepwalk/sleeptalk/go into trance and whose "sleep" memory and "waking" memories were kept completely separate from each other. This paper was listed under the mistaken titles of "Double Personality," and "Report on a Communication from Dr. Dyce of Aberdeen" in Goettman and Greaves' gigantic 1991 multi bibilography.
  • Carlson, N. (2011). Searching for Catherine Auger: The Forgotten Wife of the Wîhtikôw (Windigo). in Sarah Carter (Ed.) Recollecting: Lives of Aboriginal Women of the Canadian Northwest and Borderlands. Edmonton: AU Press.
    • The story of the wife of Napanin/Felix Augur witiko, who in Alberta in 1897 "went witiko," became overwhelmingly compelled to devour his wife and children, and begged to be killed so he wouldn't do so. The local medicine man did so.
  • Schmidt, L. E. (2010) Chapter Six: One Religio-Sexual Maniac. Heaven's Bride: the Unprintable Life of Ida C. Craddock, American Mystic, Scholar, Sexologist, Martyr, and Madwoman. New York: Basic Books.
    • Ida Craddock married an angel in the 1890s and got harrased to death for it in 1902. The chapter title comes from Schmidt tearing down...
  • Schroder, T. (1936). One Religio-Sexual ManiacThe Psychoanalytic Review, 23(1).
    • More of Craddock.
  • B.C.A./Nellie Parson Bean. (1909). My Life as a Dissociated Personality. Boston: Gorham Press.
    • earliest medical multi autobiography we know about.
  • Also Fox and Ara of Team Meg-John Barker's Plural Tarot Companion from 2025 because I think it's neat. :) (Their Plural Tarot is here!)
I had to stop because I ran out of toner (we were already low) but they all make for very small little zines! Still plenty of room in that box.

I had to stop because I ran out of toner (we were already low) but they all make for very small little zines! Still plenty of room in that box.
Still to-print:
  • Mitchell, S. W. (1889). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double Consciousness. Philadelphia: Wm. J. Dornan. Not to be confused with the Plumer article with the same title!
  • the Anna Winsor/Old Stump case from 1889 (because that case was so hard to find, I never want to lose it again, augh)
  • This article on Alma Z. from 1893!
  • Cutten's two 1903 articles on John Kinsel, the guy who his whole college dorm knew about and they took to spanking him with textbooks to make him switch.
  • The Doris Fischer case from 1916 (turns out we had it buried in our bummer files!)
  • Brandsma's 1974 article about Jonah, just because finding ANY record of black male medical multiples is rare and terrible!
  • Everything else I can find that we keep having reference!
We can annotate terms in use... ideas of personhood... theories of cause... so many opportunities, guys! @_@

PINK

Dec. 21st, 2025 09:28 pm
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pink , pink , pink !!! this is entirely self inflicted , due to research and work on shezow shrine . but holy mother of pink need to stare at green wall for 3 hours . 

please enjoy shezow's beautility belt , which is now mostly stocked . until inevitably discover something else that forget about . 

Sneak’s Computing Adventures

Dec. 21st, 2025 07:45 am
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Sneak: with (a lot of) my friend Leaf’s help, I’ve gotten our new computer working better!

WHY DO COMPOOTER GUTS GLOW? WHY DO? DISAPPROVAL! )
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